As I mentioned previously I have a new publicist who rocks. She has helped me focus and has completely gotten me on the ball. It doesn't hurt that she is also one damn cool chick. OK to save her embarrassment I'm moving on.
So tomorrow will be my first major break in the PR department because I will be featured on Daily Candy....one of the hottest blog sites out there. The person I met through them was also one damn cool chick. I love that the people coming into my life these days are so amazing and full of good energy.
So basically today I felt as I often do before something major might change my life (or before going on a date). Yep you guessed it. Vomit! I had that anxious feeling where I want to either lose my appetite all together or purge all contents previously contained within my stomach.
I know things need to change. I mean as a single mom I have to be realistic and know that the few hours a week I have been working will not pay the increasing bills. So I am excited yet terrified because it is all unknown. The only thing I can do is hold my breath, close my eyes and jump in. Since leaving my ex this basically is how I have been living anyway.
Single Moms are a rare breed. Moms in general are multitasking strong women, but single moms also have a hunger that forces us on. At times this is a true literal hunger... while our children may love peanut butter every day we tend not to (and neither do our hips). I would not be writing this or doing any of the amazing things I am working on now if it were not for the need and choice (or lack there of) that I made over a year ago. Leaving my ex has been liberating but also has forced me to get past any hesitation, pride or fear because I have to protect and provide for my child. I find myself doing things I never would have done prior to being a Mom (yeah singing on the street is par for the course). I also find that I push myself harder and risk over and over because if I fail we both end up in a sad life. She needs to see that I tried everything and did not give up.
The thing about my situation is that if there is no money it is all on me to figure it out. If Isa is sick it is me who has to stay up all night and go to the Dr. if necessary. As a single Mom in my situation I am responsible for everything and if I mess up no one can pick up the pieces. OK I am lucky to have a great network of family and friends, but it is still up to me to be resourceful. I think single moms would make great CEOs and amazing business owners because we work from hunger, fear and survival. We do not play games but instead tend to get to the point because we do not have the time or care to sugar coat things or be anything less than up front. People are in or out. If they choose to be in we often take the risk to trust and be loyal, and if they are out then we move on without much thought. It sounds harsh but there is no extra time or brain space for game playing and cuteness. This makes us good at survival in business, life and YES! dating.
As I become more use to my role as a single Mom I am gaining more and more respect for those who have had this role much longer than me. Those who have more than one child and go to school at night while working in the day and still get a mother of the year award. It is a difficult role and very under-appreciated, but I am seeing that it builds an incredible strength.
Teaser (advanced)
- Lie flat on floor with arms extended over head and legs extended and squeezed together
- Inhale tuck chin
- Exhale using abdominals curl up as legs lift up, bring arms to ceiling
- Slightly tuck pelvis as collar bone is open to ceiling
- Hold here and take 3 deep breaths - every exhale deepen the abdominals
- Slowly, with control, lower legs and spine to floor, 1 vertebrae at a time
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