The past few days, I have felt an inner drive and passion that I had put on hold over these long cold months. I also made a huge decision. I decided to go into private practice as an Art Therapist. I have been wanting to get back into it for a while now but fear has stopped me. Well, that and the sad fact that jobs in the field are not as available as when I left 2 years ago. I think a lot of the time I wait for the perfect opportunity, but sometimes that opportunity just never arrives and then we miss out.
This all came about when I was sitting in therapy discussing daily thing and everything else in life that was bothering me, but I wasn't feeling connected until I mentioned wanting to go back into practicing art. I became more emotional. My therapist pushed a bit deeper and I realized I really do want to go back into the field. I miss it. I miss art. I began, as I normally do, listing the practical reasons I could not return...the job market, the hours, the money, etc....and then my therapist said, "Well why don't you start a private practice?". Hmmm I couldn't think of why not. Well, I can-it's fear, but that's never been good enough to stop me. Suck in the fear and go on anyway.
So here I am now looking into space and posting my availability all over the place. I am terrified, but I also know I am ready. I am not leaving Pilates. I need that in my life too. But, it is definitely time to dive back into my career.
Funny enough, when I made the decision to truly follow through and move forward everything else fell into place. Over the past few years I have been trying to live as close to my true self as I can. I think there is a path for each of us and sometimes we ignore it and sometimes we follow it. For me when I ignore or fight the path I am meant to follow things tend to get off kilter and I feel I am caught in a struggle. I get depressed or life seems to throw rocks at me. When I finally get back on that right path life becomes simpler. I feel calmer and happier. I feel that way now. I think I was trying so hard to hold onto a life I thought I wanted. I knew Pilates was what I was good at and I threw all my passion and ideas into it, but maybe in doing so I ignored where I was suppose to be. I wrote another entry about my childhood decision to follow art instead of dance which explains this a bit more...it will follow this entry. I think we are always making choices and sometimes they don't make sense, but hopefully we are always following that feeling that is truest to who we are. It is mostly a quiet feeling, but I think it is possible to sense it. Sometimes it is scary to follow a path that seems to lead us in such a different direction than our logical brain can understand, but in the end if it is true and right we always feel better.
Follow your true path.
Open Leg Rocker
1. Sit up straight on sitz bones (bottom of butt), have knees bent
2. Slightly curl back to find balance between your Stiz bones and tailbone, keep the abdominals active.
3. Lift and extend one leg and then the other holding hands to ankles (or calfs), have legs shoulder width apart.
4. Find your balance here first
5. Inhale and roll back, use the abdominals to roll back to shoulders and then exhale up to starting position
Repeat 5 times
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