Trust

My daughter teaches me a lot about trust.  She looks to me and trustingly puts her faith in me to keep her safe and to make the right decisions.  At times she fights me on these choices, but she seems to trust me just the same.  I remember as a small child also trusting my parents and putting my faith in them to keep me safe.  I did not doubt that food would be on the table or that we would all be in the same house day to day.  I was not even aware that this was a possibility.  So when is it that our trust starts to waiver?

 

As a Mom I am fully aware of the amazing responsibility I have to another human being.  I work hard to make sure my daughter's trust in me is not put into question. What I realize now, that I did not realize as a child, is that parents do not know for certain that things will be ok, that food will be on the table, or that the home they live in will be there tomorrow.  In these uncertain times it is becoming more difficult to keep our trust in people, but especially to keep our children trusting in us.  

Yesterday, while walking to work, I fell.  Isabella was having a difficult morning (meaning she was having one tantrum after the next) and in an attempt to save my sanity I gave in to her request to be carried rather than forced into the stroller.  I am well aware that she is two and a bit too big for a sling but sometimes it is just easier.  Of course on this morning I got a few blocks from home and fell.  My worst fear since having Isabella was to fall while holding her.  I am so neurotic I even have gone so far as to envision us falling so I could plan out what I would do just in case.  I now know - we will survive.  I am in a lot of pain but she seems to have forgotten the accident completely.  Of course, my first response was to check her for injuries and then make sure she knew we were ok.  Basically I lied a bit to make sure she could feel safe. As parents that is what we must do to protect our child's sense of safety and trust.  We build worlds for our children to comfort them, and when the world is scary we build those worlds even grander and more comforting.  Perhaps if we can look at our children being carefree and happy for a moment or two we also can feel that magic.  

As a Mom I want my daughter to live in this fairy tale world as long as she can.  Soon- too soon- she will wake up and become aware of the truths in the world.  I think the longer she can live in a simpler world the more likely she will be to trust and believe in human goodness.  As long as she continues to believe in that I will continue to fight off the dragons to protect this magical world for her.  Because if she can believe that everything will be ok, then there is a part of me that can believe in that too.   

Neck Pull

• Lie flat to mat on back with legs straight and feet flexed (bent if need to modify), hands behind neck
  
• Nod head and curl, peel spine toward mat one vertebrae at a time. Curl torso over legs. lengthen spine toward the ceiling to come to a neutral seated position. Lever torso back on Sitz bones until need to curl, tuck tailbone and roll down through spine.
  
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• Press back of thighs to mat, lengthen head from shoulders pressing neck into hands